Yet again, I’ve found a wheel that I am trapped in. Every time I get the sensation of being trapped in a cycle that I can not do as I please I become extremely unhappy. My attitude becomes short and impatient and I am easy to snap. I didn’t smchoise to be this way nor do I want to. I simply desire complete I dependence and free will. For lost of my life I have had Kobe of that but I have always quietly accepted that the odds have NEVER been in my favor. I have always carried my burdens and though they have stumbled me I have kept on.
But in finding myself, thus far, I have found that I need to be free of all ties.
I originally thought that this job would offer all sorts of freedom. But, now I am seeing the real truth. I am, yet again, trapped in a lifestyle/situation where I am not entirely free.
So round about to the saaaame old problem with the saaaame feeling of no realistic solution. I am, still, unhappy.
No question is, what is going to make me happy?
Where do I find it And
How do I get it?
I feel like a major chance is reqieed. Very soon